One of the strongest women I know

My sister is and has been the strongest woman I know.  Today marks two years of the death of her husband.  He was 38 and diagnosed with stage 4 liver cancer and 6 months later was gone.  He left behind a 5 year old girl and a 1 year old boy.  Thus leaving my sister a single mom.  I feel like through all the medical care and chemo she did her mourning before he died.  They talked a lot about what he wanted for her if and when he didn’t make it.  Because of this she has stayed very positive and optimistic about her future.  She has bad days as that is a given with the situation.  And it is hard for her to do things as a single parent when both parents are present for school events or tball games.  She even took my niece to a Valentines father daughter dance.    She has given inspiration to most people she knows including her older sister which would be me.  I’ve had a hard year myself medically.  She has made me see the positive in everything I am and have been going through.

Today is a hard one for our entire family as my kids lost their uncle in which they were very close with.  He came to every football game of my oldest on the worst of the worst days for him.  He was a huge football fan and wouldn’t have missed his nephew playing if he didn’t have to.  He came with his fold up Lions chair and screamed his head off for my son.  It meant the world to him to be there and my son to see his uncle Matt there.  My middle son had a big connection with him for super hero and nerd movies.  By nerd movies I mean the Lord of the Rings trilogy, The Hobbit and so forth.  My husband and I are not into movies like that so it was a huge thing for my son to have someone interested.  Every movie that came out they saw it in Imax.  My daughter was just getting to know him and they loved running around the yard together.  All three of them would play catch with the football in the yard no matter where we were.  He didn’t get to see my oldest graduate and go off to school which he was very excited about.

Matt worked for the Coca Cola company and the day we dropped my son off for the start of his freshman year in college we were driving into town and there is a coca cola plant as you drive into town.  It was a sign to all of us he is here and with us.

Cancer is a monster that took a loved one from us and we miss him horribly.  My sister is doing very well and obviously misses him horribly as well as my niece.   My nephew will never remember only through pictures.  As far as pictures my sister has taken no family pictures or pictures of the two of them down and never has.  As I said she sees this as something that happened and insists on seeing the good.  She has two little ones to raise and they can’t see sadness every day.  She makes the best of every day and for that she is the strongest woman I know.

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I hate snow and yes I know I live in Michigan 

I am not a big fan of snow. I live in the western lower  peninsula and I’ve hated snow for a very long time. And yes I know I live in Michigan. In explaining I do not like snow I always get the “you live In the wrong state”. I know this yet my great great grandparents settled here. Why they stayed in this cold climate I’ll never know.

As a kid I really didn’t enjoy playing in the snow much. I did because my sister loved it and if I didn’t go out and my friends did I would be alone. So I braved the cold temperatures and went sledding and built snow forts and had snowball fights. But it wasn’t my favorite.  My favorite is being warm and seeing the sunshine. When I get cold I don’t warm up quick at all. And my body is working so hard to warm up all I want to do is sleep. When I’m warm I can cool down much easier but to me it can ever be too hot. Most of the time when it snows there is no sun. I need the sun for my wellbeing. I am  happier and  feel better with the sun. Anytime I say I would like to live somewhere south someone always says “you don’t want to live there it’s way to hot you would hate it”. No I won’t hate it as I said the heat doesn’t bother me. I can cool down so much easier than I can warm up. For instance I’ve been freezing all night. We are having a winter storm here. We have about 10 inches of snow. I’m sitting here with a heated blanket on and I’m still cold. If it were summer and I was too hot I could drink some ice water, go jump in my parents pool go to a restaurant with really good air conditioning. Yet I’m sitting here in my house where I have heat I’m wearing warm clothes and I have a heated blanket.

So yes I know I live in Michigan. And it does not change the fact snow is my very least favorite. And someday I’m going to move south and yes there may be cold days but they won’t last quite as long and be as harsh as they are here. And when I live there and there is snow and everyone is freaking over 1 inch of snow I’ll be remembering this day with 10 inches of snow and I’ll be driving around like a boss. I’ll also know that there will be more warmer days then snowy days and The sun will be back soon.  I see green grass in my future. Although it doesn’t look like it spring is coming and literally we’ll have green grass very soon. But someday I’ll be somewhere where green grass in normal!!  Thank you for reading rant about how I hate snow.  #snow

 

To my friends

Dear Friends,

I am starting a blog.  I don’t know what my theme is going to be or what I will write about.  I just want to write.  I’ve always wanted to and kind of researched this a little and decided to try it.  I have just set up my page and am trying to see how this all works.  If you see a post through Facebook it is my blog thru WordPress.  I’m just learning so don’t get annoyed but I’m hoping to get my writing bug out this way.  There are so many things I want to do in my life and some such as traveling have to wait a while.  Other things such as this and maybe getting back into jewelry making I can do now.  My life had been held up for the last several years from medical issues.  I wish I had thought of this before I could have been doing this all along but what has been has been.  Time is of a virtue and I’m not waiting a lifetime to do things I want.  This last year things have been getting back to normal.  Well as normal as they can be.  Our lives and our family is changing really quick with kids growing so fast.   Soon we will be empty nesters I have to try to find who I am again.  Its kind of a weird feeling.  I just had a birthday I’m 38.  I have a 19 year old in college and has his  own apartment.  My  17 year old is graduating in a few short months and my daughter is 13.  I’m too old to be young and I’m too young to be old.  As far as parents go I’m on the younger side as far as kids go I am an old mom.  Well that is not how it’s going to be.  I am myself and that’s who I am going to be but I haven’t seen this girl for about 20 years so it might be a little bit of a hike to find her.  But I’m on my way and I am young enough to do things I’ve always wanted.  I am too old for some things but that’s a different blog.  Thanks to everyone who has helped along the way.

 

 

The start of a new blogger

This is my first post. My reasoning for this is I find I really like to write. I’ve been told by many teachers over the years in high school, college and by others I’ve helped with letters or wording that I should write. And I never have or have never known what or how to start something like that. I’ve been seeing a few people I know who blog and my husband watches all kinds of vlogs. I want to try this to have a place I can write to get my feelings out but pretty much just to write.  I have no idea what I’m doing but I’m going to give this a try.